I sit here, in silence,
Just thinking of ways,
To get rid of all-
the painful time in my days.

I’ve tried to be better,
I’ve tried to be real,
But sometimes, it seems-
to take a little more to feel.

To feel like I’m loved,
To feel like I’m cherished,
To see that someone cares,
Instead of being so calloused.

I say, “I don’t care.”
To hide my true heart,
But really, on the inside,
It’s falling apart.

I say that, “I’m fine.”,
And “It’ll all be alright.”,
But just to be honest,
I’ve given up the fight.

I’m getting so tired,
Of sitting in this rain,
Please God, get me out,
Before I’m truly insane.

—Benjamin Lloyd

in all things, there is {love}

there is Love

“For Elohim so loved the world that He gave His only brought-forth Son, so that everyone who believes in Him should not perish but possess everlasting life. For Elohim did not send His Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.”

John 3:16-17

I have written about various subjects that stand even in trials. Purpose. Time. Joy. Peace. Healing. Light. Hope. Good. Mercy. and Forgiveness. And here I come to the last, but not least of all of these…Love. In fact, without Love, we wouldn’t have Purpose, or Joy, or Peace or Healing, etc. What remains is Love.


But Elohim proves His own love for us,

in that while we were still sinners, Messiah died for us.

Romans 5:8 


Some days, you may even wonder where Love is. Because a lot of times, it seems like a distant light and you have no way of reaching it. But trust me, it is there. Always. You are the proof of it. If you are breathing right now, that is proof enough that Love is alive and is reachable.


You. Are. Loved.

Love is the hand holding you. Love is the Joy that fills your soul. Love is the Peace flowing through you. Love is the Healing that you are desperate to find. Love is the Light that is burning out the darkness. Love is the Hope in that Light. Love is Good. Love is full of Mercy. Love is Forgiveness.



By this the love of Elohim was manifested in us,

that Elohim has sent His only brought-forth Son into the world,

in order that we might live through Him.

1John 4:9 

in all things, there is {forgiveness}

there is forgiveness

But with You there is forgiveness,

That You might be feared.

Psalm 130:4

With Mercy comes Forgiveness.

It doesn’t matter where you’ve been. What matters is where you are now. You are never too far from the mercy, grace and forgiveness of the Heavenly Father if you are truly willing to lay it all down.

It’s the here and now.

I believe Yah forgives when we are truly of a repentant heart, and prove it with our actions.


“Let it therefore be known to you, brothers,

that through this One forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you,

and by Him everyone who believes is declared right from all sins…”

Acts 13:38-39 

in all things there is {Mercy}…

there is mercy

But the mercy of Yahweh is from everlasting to everlasting

Upon those who fear Him, And His righteousness to children’s children,

to those who guard His covenant, And to those who remember

His orders to do them.

Psalm 103:17-18 

We make mistakes and sometimes we burn to the point of disintegrating. Sometimes it feels as if there’s no hope for you. No good can come out of anything. No bend in the road. But there are bends and turns. There is hope. There is Mercy.


…Let us come boldly to the throne of favor,

in order to receive mercy, and find favor for timely help.

Hebrews 4:16 


To obtain Mercy is to be brave and honorable. To be humble. To admit your wrongs. But not only admit to them, but forgive yourself for them and ask for forgiveness. Mercy is not too far from where you are…


Keep yourselves in the love of Elohim,

looking for the mercy of our Master Yahushua

Messiah unto everlasting life.

Jude 1:21 

Lorenz + Felecia


Hello everyone! A while ago, I wrote a post telling about a certain 2 people who became betrothed. Well, 4 weeks ago, 2 days before Sukkot, I was at their wedding. And let me tell you, it was perfectly beautiful. I got goose bumps! It was no ordinary wedding, and that was what made it so beautiful. It focused on the picture of us meeting our Groom, the Messiah as well as Lorenz and Felecia’s reuniting.

Anyways, I wont waste words on it because I have a video that will do it more justice than me trying to describe every detail. Hope you enjoy the following!!! I also have a video of me singing the song I wrote for them, during the ceremony. (:


Here’s the flash mob dance we did during the reception:

in all things, there is {good}

there is Good


Do not be overcome by evil,

but overcome evil with good.

Romans 12:21

     You wake up thinking that today is going to be a good day when in the end it turns out badly. And you sit down at the end of the day wondering what happened? How could everything go from being great and then go to horrible in a flash?

     You lay awake in the middle of the night, staring up at the ceiling, tears slipping down your cheeks because it’s the only thing you can seem to come up with to make you feel a little better, when in fact, it only makes you feel worse.

Is this it? Where’s the rainbow that is promised?

     You close your eyes and wait for something to happen. And then you hear a small voice whisper to you, “I haven’t left you.” You breathe in, thoughts circulating through your mind. Suddenly you feel stronger than ever. You finally feel like you can make it through this hurdle. And you can—you will.

His plans are Good and not Evil.

For the rest, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is righteous, whatever is clean, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good report, if there is any uprightness and if there is any praise – think on these.

Philippians 4:8