when your heart is breaking

when your heart is breaking


“You feel your heart beat loudest when it’s breaking…”


It’s the silence, the cold, the loneliness in your soul. It’s the breaking, the tearing, the loss of feeling, you can’t pretend. It’s the darkness, the emptiness, the light that you can barely see, in the distance.

Time and time again, you try to breathe, but you find that you’re drowning in a sea of pain, doubt and fear. You want to give up. When you fall down, you want to stay down.

It’s here, in the waiting.

It’s here, in the failing.

It’s here, in the tears.

It’s here, in the silence.

That One Voice.

He’s here in the silence. He’s here in the cold. He’s here in the loneliness. He’s here to fill up your soul. He can hear your heart breaking. He can hear you tearing apart. He is the faint light in the darkness. He is always here for you.

You Can Count On Him

You Can Count On Him


You may be let down by someone. You may be let down by the world. No one here on earth is perfect—everyone will mess up. But there is ONE who will lift you up when you’re let down. There is ONE who will always be there for you. And HE will never let you down, no matter what.

The Creator—Elohim of the universe—is the One you can always count on.

to looking back

to looking back

Days go by

Months go by

Years go by


You’ve gone through storm after storm. But think about it, you’re still here, breathing, living it out. You look back and you see the many pictures that have been painted, all lined up in a series of events. Memories.


And You Still Have So Much To Accomplish.


Time flies

Are you still fighting?

Are you still believing?

Do you still let the enemy hold you down? Are your hopes and dreams still sitting around, waiting to be taken out and shown to the world?


Your time is here.

Your time is now.

Don’t let it slip on by.






I sit here, in silence,
Just thinking of ways,
To get rid of all-
the painful time in my days.

I’ve tried to be better,
I’ve tried to be real,
But sometimes, it seems-
to take a little more to feel.

To feel like I’m loved,
To feel like I’m cherished,
To see that someone cares,
Instead of being so calloused.

I say, “I don’t care.”
To hide my true heart,
But really, on the inside,
It’s falling apart.

I say that, “I’m fine.”,
And “It’ll all be alright.”,
But just to be honest,
I’ve given up the fight.

I’m getting so tired,
Of sitting in this rain,
Please God, get me out,
Before I’m truly insane.

—Benjamin Lloyd

in all things, there is {love}

there is Love

“For Elohim so loved the world that He gave His only brought-forth Son, so that everyone who believes in Him should not perish but possess everlasting life. For Elohim did not send His Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.”

John 3:16-17

I have written about various subjects that stand even in trials. Purpose. Time. Joy. Peace. Healing. Light. Hope. Good. Mercy. and Forgiveness. And here I come to the last, but not least of all of these…Love. In fact, without Love, we wouldn’t have Purpose, or Joy, or Peace or Healing, etc. What remains is Love.


But Elohim proves His own love for us,

in that while we were still sinners, Messiah died for us.

Romans 5:8 


Some days, you may even wonder where Love is. Because a lot of times, it seems like a distant light and you have no way of reaching it. But trust me, it is there. Always. You are the proof of it. If you are breathing right now, that is proof enough that Love is alive and is reachable.


You. Are. Loved.

Love is the hand holding you. Love is the Joy that fills your soul. Love is the Peace flowing through you. Love is the Healing that you are desperate to find. Love is the Light that is burning out the darkness. Love is the Hope in that Light. Love is Good. Love is full of Mercy. Love is Forgiveness.



By this the love of Elohim was manifested in us,

that Elohim has sent His only brought-forth Son into the world,

in order that we might live through Him.

1John 4:9