1Kings 18:46—And the hand of Yahweh was on EliYah. And he girded up his loins and ran ahead of Ahab to the entrance of Yizreʽĕl.
1Kings 19:3—And he feared, and rose up and ran for his life, and went to Be’ĕrsheba, which belongs to Yehudah, and left his servant there.
1Ki 19:4 But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree, and prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, Yahweh, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!”
2Kings 2:11—And it came to be, as they continued on and spoke, that see, a chariot of fire with horses of fire which separated the two of them. And EliYah went up by a whirlwind into the heavens.
In this verse, Elijah is so afraid that he wishes nothing other than death, his pain and suffering is too much to bear and he prays for Yah to just end his life. It is later on that his wish was granted and many people take this metaphorically as to say that Elijah may have killed himself or that if you ask Yah to kill you, He simply will, but this is not the case. Elijah was taken because his time was done, his purpose had been fulfilled.
Imagine how you would feel waiting for the years to go by to wait to finally spend eternity with the one you love so immensely. That is how our Creator feels; He can’t wait for us to fulfill our purpose, so that we can come home and spend eternity with Him, but this does not mean simply ending your life, or even going into a state of depression is the right thing to do, our Father wants us to be abundant in our lives, and to be happy to be His children, and to worship Him every second that we breathe.
When I was in a state of depression, all I wanted was for it to end, and I was mad at Yah for punishing me, and not just simply ending all of the pain, but this is not His desire for our lives. It is a working relationship that takes commitment on both ends, just as it does with any other relationship, He wants us to be a part of Him, but He cannot simply fix everything and make all the hurt turn to dust, it is a two-sided love, and we need to grab the other side of the relationship and do what we must to make our lives joyful for Him.
However, the abundant life which Yahushua gives prepares our hearts with a mature love which can endure pain and suffering. The Apostle Paul says that this mature love “bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails . . . ” (I Corinthians 13:7,8).